Big Pond or Big Fish?

First of all, happy Easter everyone. In this season, I am reminded of just how blessed I am to have a Savior, one who was willing to die, then beat death, for me. The very thought overwhelms me... 

Speaking of overwhelmed...

Most days, I am a pretty confident person. I act like a pretty big fish in a pretty little pond. But this weekend, as I tried to read articles, search for more articles, write a tiny and most insignificant paper, and get a bunch of loose ends tidied up for the class I am currently in, my confidence got a little bit shaken up. Well, actually it was when I stared down the barrel of a very daunting syllabus for my next class that I got a little shaken up. Suddenly, I felt like a very little fish in a much bigger pond. 

Weird. I'm pretty sure I can handle it. I've handled it this far. What about today's syllabus review and textbook purchasing got me feeling like I'm back at the very first day of school again? 

But I think this fear is a pretty good thing. It keeps me grounded. It keeps me pushing, trying to do better, continuing to work harder. Maybe it's okay to feel like a little fish every once in a while. Someday I'll be a bigger fish...probably in a bigger pond. Either way, I've got to just keep swimming.