Political Apprehensions

I have to admit that this year's race to the presidency has had me a little anxious. I read up on the candidates, felt fairly knowledgeable on the main issues, and really actually had an interest in politics and the political process. None of those things made me particularly anxious. My issues lay in trying to decide what my beliefs are not who's beliefs I will follow. Sounds silly right?

I was raised a Christian girl, and I firmly hold to those beliefs, but oh, how I wish it was that simple. Take the issue of abortion for example. And please don't flog me for my opinions at the moment. I believe that abortion is bad. It's real bad. I would never - ever - have an abortion under any circumstance. But what about victims of rape or incest? How can I decide for them that they should keep that baby? Impossible for me to imagine the feelings associated with something so terrible. And think of the travesty that would take place for those that would get abortions anyway. The only place to turn when abortion is illegal is back allies or basements with unqualified surgeons...

To reiterate here, I'm not saying that I think we should make it legal either. That would give those with no excuse an excuse to end a human life. I know it's wrong, but....

See my issue here?

Here's another example. Gay marriage. Again, I don't enjoy public floggings so much, so please just let me throw some thoughts out there... Some states are beginning to recognize gay marriage and equal partnership for heterosexual and homosexual couples. I know that I believe that being gay is wrong, but didn't Jesus love people anyway? I know and love gay people. In my mind, there is a difference between a Biblical marriage and a legal marriage. On this issue, I'm actually pretty sure that I fall toward the allowance of gay marriage and gay couple rights. But is it right?

So, my head is convoluted with all of this right and wrong. Part of me thinks that this nation was founded on the principles of religious tolerance. Settlers came to this land wanting something more than persecution for their beliefs. Shall we now persecute those that don't believe the same as us? And part of me thinks that if everything is relative and there is no absolute truth, then we have nothing to stand on and nothing to fight for. Shall I compromise my beliefs and allow the nation to fall into a shallowness of anti-belief and relativism?

And let's not forget issues of terrorism, war, health care, the economy, employment, poverty, taxes....

So, I am anxious. I am anxious to see what our nation will look like when I have children and even grandchildren. I am anxious to see if I even get to keep my job or the pay that I get for the next year.

When asked on Wednesday if my candidate won, I simply responded, "Um...ask me again in a year or two; I'll let you know."